Forget what we're told.

Trying to figure out the future.

2008-08-14T14:36:26Z

So.
I can graduate in December with a Bachelors in Liberal Arts or whatever they call it.
Focus: History. Minor: Sociology.

Or. I can spend almost two more semesters [21 creds] and add another major, which is new: Urban and Regional Studies. It has to do with city planning and it's really what I'm interested in. I already have 12 credits in this field [Need 15 for a minor... with a class from each track and I have 2 tracks covered].

I would need to take the prereq [3 cred] (it wouldn't be until winter because the major is that new), 12 credits of random classes that interest me anyway, the senior level class [3 cred], and some form of community research for another 3credits. This can be an internship or an independent study or some other form of service that is approved.

Maybe my Ottawa internship would fill in for 3 more. I worked in politics and paid a lot of attention to the city itself. I loved it there. The city, that is. It's beautiful. I plan to go back over the summer.

And really... I already have Cognates. Srsly.

21 credits for a second major isn't bad. And I am well aware that a History major is worth a cardboard box if it has nothing to follow it. The way this degree is designed, it's really useful.

When I first thought about this, I thought the major was 15 credits (Yeah yeah, I know, I know...) and I didn't know I had any of the classes already under my belt and I wanted to do it. It's only 6 more credits than I thought and it's still the same amount of time. And the variety of classes that I need, well, there should always be options open. [SOC, ECON, AAAS, CRJ, POL, AMST, ... hey I have another class that I took! WGST, AH, COML, ENGL, GEOG, HIST]

So... I have 15 credits already into it and would only need 18.

I can take things on Architecture and Cartography and Environmentalism and Economics and Geography and Politics and Public Policy and Social Group and I mean... this is all stuff I like.

Or... I can graduate and get it over with and still not know what to do. Go back for teaching or fiddle with grad school ideas. Probably get another service job and never leave.

What do you think? Another two semesters?
Graduate with two majors in 5.5 years?
It's at least more useful than History, neh?

Blech. I am so useless.

Economically sound~

2008-08-11T17:00:31Z

Staind - Believe in Me

2008-08-10T16:49:20Z

I sit alone and watch the clock,
Trying to collect my thoughts,
All I think about is you.
And so I cry myself to sleep,
And hope the devil I don't meet.
In the dreams that I live through.

Believe in me, I know you've waited for so long,
Believe in me, sometimes the weak become the strong,
Believe in me, this life's not always what it seems,
Believe in me, 'cause I was made for chasing dreams.

All the smiles you've had to fake,
And all the shit you've had to take.
Just to lead us here again.

I never have the things to say,
To make it all just go away,
To make it all just disappear.

Believe in me, I know you've waited for so long,
Believe in me, sometimes the weak become the strong,
Believe in me, this life's not always what it seems,
Believe in me, 'cause i was made for chasing dreams.

It's my life,
It's my choice,
Hear my words,
Hear my voice,
And just believe.

I sit alone and watch the clock,
Trying to collect my thoughts,
And all i think about is you.

If you believe in me, life's not always what it seems
Believe in me, 'cause i was made for chasing dreams.

Believe in me, I know you've waited for so long,
Believe in me, sometimes the weak become the strong,
Believe in me, this life's not always what it seems,
Believe in me, 'cause i was made for chasing dreams.

Sorry... I liked it on the way home yesterday. ... now that I listen to it at home it sounds kinda cheesy. I hate when that happens.

Hey, why not.

2008-08-08T16:06:49Z

Yeah, so not all of these points are very weighted or interesting, but I'm in a sharing mood:

[10 things to know about McCain]

For all the coverage this week of Senator John McCain's background, there are some important things you won't learn about him from the TV networks. His carefully crafted positive image relies on people not knowing this stuff—and you might be surprised by some of it.

Please check out the list below, and then forward it to your friends, family, and coworkers. We can't rely on the media to tell folks about the real John McCain—but if we all pass this along, we can reach as many people as CNN Headline News does on a good night.
http://pol.moveon.org/mccain10/

10 things you should know about John McCain (but probably don't):

1. John McCain voted against establishing a national holiday in honor of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Now he says his position has "evolved," yet he's continued to oppose key civil rights laws.1

2. According to Bloomberg News, McCain is more hawkish than Bush on Iraq, Russia and China. Conservative columnist Pat Buchanan says McCain "will make Cheney look like Gandhi."2

3. His reputation is built on his opposition to torture, but McCain voted against a bill to ban waterboarding, and then applauded President Bush for vetoing that ban.3

4. McCain opposes a woman's right to choose. He said, "I do not support Roe versus Wade. It should be overturned."4

5. The Children's Defense Fund rated McCain as the worst senator in Congress for children. He voted against the children's health care bill last year, then defended Bush's veto of the bill.5

6. He's one of the richest people in a Senate filled with millionaires. The Associated Press reports he and his wife own at least eight homes! Yet McCain says the solution to the housing crisis is for people facing foreclosure to get a "second job" and skip their vacations.6

7. Many of McCain's fellow Republican senators say he's too reckless to be commander-in-chief. One Republican senator said: "The thought of his being president sends a cold chill down my spine. He's erratic. He's hotheaded. He loses his temper and he worries me."7

8. McCain talks a lot about taking on special interests, but his campaign manager and top advisers are actually lobbyists. The government watchdog group Public Citizen says McCain has 59 lobbyists raising money for his campaign, more than any of the other presidential candidates.8

9. McCain has sought closer ties to the extreme religious right in recent years. The pastor McCain calls his "spiritual guide," Rod Parsley, believes America's founding mission is to destroy Islam, which he calls a "false religion." McCain sought the political support of right-wing preacher John Hagee, who believes Hurricane Katrina was God's punishment for gay rights and called the Catholic Church "the Antichrist" and a "false cult."9

10. He positions himself as pro-environment, but he scored a 0—yes, zero—from the League of Conservation Voters last year.10

John McCain is not who the Washington press corps make him out to be. Please help get the word out—forward this email to your personal network. And if you want us to keep you posted on MoveOn's work to get the truth out about John McCain, sign up here: http://pol.moveon.org/mccaintruth/

Just remember his song... "Bomb bomb bomb, bomb bomb Iran."
MMmmmmm... foreshadowing.

We'll love again and we'll dance again...

2008-08-05T17:05:51Z

I forgot I have two papers due on Thursday.
I am not in the mood for doing anything today.
=/

... And really... I just don't see the point in analyzing Freud.
srsly.

What I reeeeally want to do right now is to go sit outside with Matt. Not be cooped up not-outside with Matt at school/work/school.
But, I guess I'll make an attempt to further chances of seeing him tomorrow.

Psh.
Responsibilities.

I'll be lazy and live in a box, thanks.

Eh.

2008-07-21T15:31:09Z

Eh.
If I didn't read Sarah's The Sims updates I would delete this journal.
It's pretty pointless thing.

::shrugs::
Ah well.

It's funny how much I liked livejournal forever ago. I don't even really know why. I check the friends page out of habit. I have a mild curiosity about most people, but it's not like anyone really uses this to converse anymore. It's not even for keeping in touch. We've lost it. And aside from a few people... I'm not sad about it. I adored many people back then and would have done anything for them. We've just grown a part. It happens. It's life. Growing up is full of growings apart. It's a little that the only time anyone seems to care what's happened to an old friend is when it's something extreme because it makes for good gossip. It's human nature, I suppose. I don't know.

I'm tired.

Anyway. I don't really know what this post was meant to be about. I'm not sad or in a rough spot or anything like that.

Just realizing how meaningless livejournal has become. I don't write in it. I just read from it. But if I don't keep in contact, but I keep reading, does that make me a silent stalker? It feels too weird.

I don't know.

The Take Over, The Break's Over

2008-06-18T13:59:08Z

Just so people know... because you've tried to get a hold of me... I am crazy busy and I'm sorry and I will call back as soon as I can.

Also - I will pretty much be working 8:30am - 5:00pm Mon-Fri...

- - -

Baby, seasons change but people don't.
And I'll always be waiting in the back room.
I'm boring but overcompensate with
Headlines and flash, flash, flash photography.

But don't pretend you ever forgot about me.
Don't pretend you ever forgot about me.

Wouldn't you rather be a widow than a divorcee?
Style your wake for fashion magazines.
Widow or a divorcee?
Don't pretend, d-d-d-don't pretend.

We don't fight fair.
We don't fight fair.

They say your head can be a prison.
Then these are just conjugal visits.
People will dissect us till
This doesn't mean a thing anymore.

Don't pretend you ever forgot about me.
Don't pretend you ever forgot about me.

Wouldn't you rather be a widow than a divorcee?
Style your wake for fashion magazines, ohhh.
Widow or a divorcee?
Don't pretend, d-d-d-don't pretend.

We do it in the dark with smiles on our faces.
We're dropped and well concealed in secret places, woah.
We do it in the dark with smiles on our faces.
We're dropped and well concealed in secret places
We don't fight fair.
We don't fight fair.
We don't fight fair.
We don't fight fair.
We don't fight fair.

We do it in the dark with smiles on our faces.
We're dropped and well concealed in secret places, woah.
We do it in the dark with smiles on our faces.
We're dropped and well concealed in secret places.
We don't fight fair.
With smiles on our faces.
We're dropped and well concealed in secret places.
We don't fight fair.

Don't pretend you ever forgot about me.
We don't fight fair.
Don't pretend you ever forgot about me.
We don't fight fair.

I get lunch with my MP soon.

2008-06-12T16:06:16Z

I pretty much have the best man ever for my boyfriend.

You can commence jealousy in 3...2...1.
GO.

=P

As I walk around Ottawa I am reminded of this quote.

2008-05-22T23:17:29Z

“There are many in the world who are dying for a piece of bread, but there are many more dying for a little love.” - Mother Teresa

Remember to be good to each other.
You never know who you're helping today.

I am alone in this place.

2008-05-18T18:44:27Z

Watch your mouth
Oh, oh, oh
Because your speech is slurred enough
That you just might swallow your tongue
I'm sure you'd want, want to give up the ghost
With just a little more poise than that

Or was it God who chokes
In these situations, running late?
No, no, he called in
Or was it God who chokes
In these situations, running late?
No, no, he called in

The hospice is
A relaxing weekend getaway
Where you're a cut above all the rest
Sick and sad patients
On first name basis with all the top physicians

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

That's when you stu-stu-stutter something profound
To the support on the line
And with the way you've been talking
Every word gets you a step closer to hell

That's when you stu-stu-stutter something profound
To the support on the line
And with the way you've been talking
Every word gets you a step closer to hell

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

I am
Alone in this bed, house, and head
And she never fixes this
But at least she...

I am
Alone, in this bedroom
She never fixes this
But at least she...

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

The hospice is
A relaxing weekend getaway
Where you're a cut above all the rest
Sick and sad patients
On first name basis with all the top physicians

But that girl had so much love she'd wanna kiss you all the time

2008-05-06T05:56:04Z

I don't just love you for Batman.
It's just an added bonus. ^_^

Tomorrow is a bit of shopping and a bit of packing.
And back to the regularly scheduled nightly television and snuggles.

Mailings

2008-05-05T20:52:11Z

If you want a mail of some sort while I am in Ottawa, leave me your mailing address in a comment. comments are screened and private for your protection!

If I get a chance... you shall receive post! ^_^
Because everyone loves getting mail.

When the moon fell in love with the sun all was golden in the sky

2008-05-05T04:00:35Z

Days like today make me feel so incredibly loved and happy and safe.
I hope I do the same to you.
^_^

... I leave on Saturday.
I'm nervous. =/
... I uh...
I hope I know what I'm doing.

She held the world upon a string .... She said she won the world at a carnival

2008-05-04T04:19:12Z

I don't know where I will be living in 2009, but I know I will be happy.
I'm already happy, but there'll be more of it.
Will be done with this stretch of school.
Might not be around to get more schoolings at UM-D. Which is perfectly fine with me. Gotta get away from here some time. Dun wanna be a "lifer."

Ottawa's less than a week away.
I'm that lovely mixture of nerves and excitement.
I hope I remember to pack everything O.o

Okay... exhausted.
Bedtime.
... then waking up to Mongo-left-overs...
And... more of this... working-out business.
And packing.
And shopping for packing.
::rubs her eyes and head::
'Night.

I eat left-overs at the kitchen table by the light of the tv screen.

2008-05-02T13:54:05Z

I got all my hairs cut off, yesterday.
It had been past my shoulders because I let it grow all pretty-like for the wedding.
And now it is Shoooort. But, longish in the front. Because I've been dying to cut it that way.

And now I shall cease to look 12 and look a bit more like my age group.
I hope.

Yay for using less shampoo and not taking forever to dry!

Time goes by slowly 'til I'm with you, then it speeds on by...

2008-05-01T04:54:54Z

I want to be in your arms every night just as I was only hours ago.
Some day, eh?
Some day.

>.>

2008-04-28T18:34:19Z

MUAHAHAHA!!
Take that SQUARE states!

I'm a stable mess.

2008-04-23T17:12:42Z

May-June is going to be crazy busy.
I've been very excited.
But, now I am starting to get those fears of failure.

Whee!
hehe.

Oh well.

Hmmm...

2008-04-09T04:43:16Z

I think I have finally become calm with my life despite its constant state of hecticness.

It's... rather weird.
I am not used to it, but am content.

And now... to finish a paper.
... but I'm not stressing.
w.
t.
f?

I go to [the] school.

2008-04-07T20:02:49Z

Student Information effective from Fall 2005 to The End Of Time Registered for Term: No
First Term Attended: Fall 2004
Last Term Attended: Fall 2007
Status: Active
Site: Dearborn Campus
Residence: In-State Residence
Citizenship: Citizen
Student Type: Continuing Student (...ouch...)
Class: Senior
Expected Graduation Date: 02-MAY-2009

Translation:
This is the computer suspecting that I won't take summer classes. HAHAHA [I wish I didn't have to]
Internship = 3 credits
Class with Sid = 3 credits

Final Conclusion?
I graduate in December '08.
That's not bad. 4.5 years in total.

And then I get to go back for more school because a B.S. in History means I can live in a box if I want to!! hehehe
I'm kind of hoping that the Canadian Parliament internship will give me some ideas.
The plan is to go back to UM-D to get a Masters in teaching... because I can do that. I figure, if nothing else, it's something that doesn't take long to obtain and I've wanted to teach in the past. I don't know if I'm really going to do this for sure, but it's a pretty fast program. Maybe we'll get some Democrats in office and the government will actually want teachers again. O.o haha.

Okay... 2 more pages left on this paper. ::runs away to finish it.

I steal memes...

2008-04-05T16:44:03Z

Took this from mah friend Sarah.

1. My username is ______ because ______.

nekobob
Way back in middle school I wrote a story about the last bob from the planet bob. It was actually pretty clever for a crazy 6th grader. aaaanywho... for the longest time my screen names and such revolved around "last_bob." In Sophomore year of high school the boyfriend of the time was a Japanese/Anime nut (still is) and I learned that neko meant cat. For some reason I snagged it because I thought it was cool. And... I've been too lazy to care enough to change it.

2. My name is _____ because ______.

Sarah
My mom wanted to name me Mary after my grandmother. Mary was also the name of my other grandma's dog. So, dad said no and wanted to name me Sarah cause he really liked it. My mom didn't like it because it was too common, but she said "fine."

3. My journal is titled ____ because ____.

"Forget what we're told."
Song lyrics from Matt and my song. We don't listen to it because we don't want to not like it anymore. But... I like that line. It kind of fits why I do what I do.

4. My journal subtitle is ____ because ____.

"Before we get too old."
Continuation of the last question. It's the next line in the verse.

5. My friends page is called ____ because ____.

"Show me your garden."
Again, it is the next line in the verse, but it also fits well for reading the friends page.

6. My default userpic is ____ because ____.

Chii from Chobits
I tagged it "Please Chii" because it looks like she's kind of ... begging or pleading. I think she's adorable and want to hugglesquish her. Her pose is just... how I feel a lot of the time. Once upon a time, it was the default because it matched my color scheme a lot more than it does, now. I no longer have a paid account, so it isn't quite the same.

Was it worth it?

2008-03-28T19:40:48Z

http://hivltg.co.uk/?p=46 [source]
I recommend both versions.
Little tweaks in the newer one.
Both are pretty.

And creepy.

--------
Portal spoilers via awesome song beyond the cut.

Hello,
Hello, and Welcome to the Enrichment Center
Hello, and Welcome to the Enrichment Center
Hello, your specimen has been processed
Hello, your specimen has been processed
Hello, your specimen has been processed
Hello, we are now ready to begin the test proper
Hello
Hello

The device has been modified
The device has been modified

Hello, there you are friend
Hey hey, hey hey hey, put me down
I don't hate you,

Well you found me
Congratulations
Was it worth it?

The only thing you managed to break so far
Is my heart
This isn't brave
It's murder
What did I ever do to you?
You don't even care, do you?

Please proceed into Android Hell
Android Hell,

Weighted Storage Cube: Destroyed
Weighted Storage Cube: Destroyed
Weighted Storage Cube: Destroyed

Thank you for participating in this Aperture Science Computer Aided Enrichment Activity
Goodbye
Goodbye

Are you still there?

I told you I was obsessed.
... It's a good thing.

... Go play it.
You will see.

And there will be cake.

2008-03-26T06:22:46Z

I have a confession.
It is no secret.

I.
Am addicted to Portal.

Yes,
I love the

[Weighted Companion Cube]

And the

[is a lie]

...I am not ashamed to say my laptop is themed.

I might be late on this one... but I have the excuse of a broken laptop. ::coughs::

...
<3

Mmmmm... Quality over Quantity...

It was kinda cute.

2008-03-11T17:24:43Z

We were watching videos of laughing babies in the lounge today.
It kind of made me want one.

And then I thought of poopy diapers.

I'm still glad I'm not a mommy.
>.>

Some day I am sure I will be pleased to be able to embarrass an offspring with my weirdness.

As for now... I'm still trying to handle school and wishing I had time for an actual job O.O

I use livejournal to get out my extra bitchings.

2008-03-07T14:20:28Z

My neck muscles are currently rocks.
I don't know what strange phenomenon caused them to go so stiff overnight (other than the weather), but movement is definately being limited.
Ow. Ow. Ow.

The end. Back to work, Enid!